Being humble is over for me

I've been to nice,too humble,too open,sometimes I forget how awesome I am & I start bashing myself. Like for example today in school some asshole,well my classmate,said something about me which was insulting & I still smiled,I am too polite for Jesus' sake & I think I need to stop being humble for now,so I'm gonna blog with arrogance today,to release my puffiness! I'm gonna keep calm & blog.

A letter to people who talk without considering other people's feelings :


I don't know why you think this is funny,it never was,criticizing a fat person is like saying an elephant is big when they are already big & they know it! I am not even fat. Mind you,I am a very clean person,I hate both cold & hot weather,I like weathers that are just nice,warm I guess? Whatever. And yeah,you have no right to say that I don't care about myself,because I do & how the hell do you know if I take care of myself or not? Can't you see how pretty I look??? I like,follow routines in a day! I'm so unlucky man,you have no idea,I just can't help to rumble about my complexion because it really REALLY bothers me when people say something negative. What the fuck.

1. Why do you have zits? Well according to my science knowledge,I don't know if my pores are clogged or is it hormones but I have my seasons & yeah,I don't fucking know the answer but well it's my skin anyways & why do you bother so much? Unless you wanna befriend my zit,then fiine.
2. Don't you take care of yourself? Well this is totally stupid to ask unless I look like poo. If I did,I know why you ask but I look fine most of the time & asking me this is totally frustrating because I am a girl,I actually love myself? It's like you're saying I'm lazy to even bother treating my horrendous skin,take a look closely if you see me fatherfo,I only have acne scars left,fyi my zits improved but you're too ignorant to bother cause you only see the ugly things in life.
3. I used to have flawless skin. I am a teenager,I go through these hormone changes & I'm a girl,most girls would break out during their period,me too duh. So whats the point of asking people why they have acne? Even the dictionary doesn't have the extended & full explanation to that. I used to have nice skin for your fucked up information & I never asked for this so shut the fuck up.

I think you should really STFU when you got nothing nice to say because words hurt.

I don't know what to wear,I am going through those times when you have a full closet but have no idea what to wear,I must be nuts! I am desperate for shoes,real time. I wanna wear heels,but I'm still not that confident in them,my favourites are slippers,flip flops,whatever you wanna call them! Living in Malaysia & wearing flip flops is something you'd normally see,I love flip flops! I think you can wear them with anything! I wanna do some DIY,maybe fly to Tesco,get some RM2.99 slippers & get all colours,re-decorate them all with flowers,studs,diamonds,whatever! I'm feeling creative now :) Land full of slippers.

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My heaven

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Gorgeous Chanel slippers

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Ahhhhhhhh I'm feeling so beachy right now! I wanna go to the beach,wear a bikini,walk on hot sand,get burnt by the sun (sort of),feel the wind & slurping on coconut juice,that's what life's suppose to be like,so beachy & relaxed. My classmates are planning something for the end of the year,I don't know if I'm free to go,but it seems nice,being at the highlands is not a bad thing too since Malaysia is like freaky hot. I'm still confused,dazed & in my honeymoon mood now,I'm feeling good right now,blogging makes life so much better. And oh! Thanks for those who view my blog,for those readers that are from another side of the world,thank you!! I used to be the girl who gets like 5 views in a day,sometimes none,then after years,I start getting hundreds per day & I feel good so thanks!  

I'm waiting for this to happen,it will soon I guess? Keep wishing!

Leave me comment la,I'm bored without a response.

xoxo

Nothing to do.

My skin is being totally obedient nowadays,I think I'm gonna stop breaking out,feels as if my time is over,hopefully. I am so happy that hard work pays,I used to have flawless skin,I am working hard to get it back. Note that this is how I really look like,no make up,no contact lens,no eyelid tape (I don't even use eyelid tape wtf!),no pretty clothes,not even eyebrow powder! I am showing you my completely bare face right here,I am proud to be so brave :D

Miss T,my girlfriend,is obsessed with her new book called Pretty Little Liars I wanna follow the trend cuz I watched the show on 8tv the other day & the plot seems mysterious plus the cast are all so gorgeous! Nothing beats Gossip Girl of course but I want to add on some interesting cool ass dramas to my dull live,I may be getting the novels from T soon also. Can't wait!

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I forgot to announce this good news to you people! My sister borrowed me her little laptop,even though there is like 3 computers at home but I don't get access all the time,so my sister decide to just let me use this little notebook & I'm so glad to say that I can go online & check out looks plus blog all I want anytime! How cool is this?? And since I found the perfect denim for me last week while shopping with my mom,I decide to pair it up with my grey cropped t-shirt the other day & I felt naked because I don't have my belly piercing anymore :( It costs me like RM40 to get it pierced & trust me the process isn't that fun to talk about but I like the look of having my belly pierced,so I decide to pierce it again if I have the time,chance & cash cuz it's sad to see my  belly rings unused.

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I'm going out with T,J & K tomorrow :) will be a great day,cuz I'm meeting new people & meeting up with my girlfriend again,which is the best I can ever do. My girlfriend T,happens to be studying far away & we rarely get to see each other,she calls me sometimes when she's able to but it just doesn't feel right if we don't meet face to face,she's a total sweetheart & it's worth spending every minute with her while she's around. Sign that petition up there if you haven't! I am demanding you to do a good thing in life for once. Thank you! :D

Here,a video of one of my most favourite people on earth,he's fucking hilarious. Hope he makes your day!

Beautiful girls all over the world.

Fuhhhhhhhhhh I'm tired. I just came back from KL with my sis & mom,went to Bukit Bintang to send my mom to a massage parlour because she needs some pampering,good news is I didn't buy anything because I don't really have anything in mind so that means NO MONEY SPENT! Yay! No pictures taken,me being a total failure when it comes to blogging because I don't have photos,blame me for not having a camera. Anyways,we had lunch at sushi zanmai & while my mom had her massage,me & my sis got an hour to walk around in Sungai Wang,I seldom hang out there cuz I think that place is super packed,it's like being in a sardine can.

But I bought the perfect pair of jeans yesterday & a long sleeved top because I have very little long sleeved tops! *clapping hands*

You're not human if you don't own denim.

I also saw many many pretty girls at the streets of KL,all sorts of races,all sorts of style & I like observing them,sometimes when I stare,they'll stare back & smile,while some just give me the lansi look,but it's okay,I appreciate the ones who smile :) Remember when I said I'm buying a camera next year? I dslr? Yeah,I'm gonna use it to take photos of all these beautiful girls I see,capture their style,I just like doing all these things,they make me happy,maybe you'd think I'll snap a photo of a girl who looks like miss Malaysia but no lah,I like something different,I like to see chubby girls who can dress really well despite their sizes,I like seeing dark skinned girls who dare to try bold colours & wear all the right things,I like seeing someone who has all the guts in the world to wear stage outfits out,or a body full of tattoos,these people are filled with awesome-ness.

I have a tendency to compare myself to other girls,especially if they are prettier,is it just me,or I always feel like my looks matter? Yeah maybe our looks do matter but I don't wanna get obsessed with it,I have very bad insecurities,low self esteem,but still I have some friends who thinks I carry myself like a model,which is weird,but yeah,I think you gotta do the best out of yourself,that's why I'm good in hiding my flaws,but there are days where I feel tired of hiding,so I flaunt my flaws,to see who'll accept me for me,I brace myself to know who'll betray me & reject me,those who did choose to go away & ignore me,let's just say I gave them a fuck off sign too. At the end of the day,I choose to be real,even though I get depressed when I feel like I'm not good enough,but that's just life. If life were to be so easy,why live in the first place? I don't know about you,but I'm not gonna say something cheesy like "be true to yourself & believe in yourself" 

I wanna be a better version of me.

Better.prettier.nicer.richer.cooler.

Double Identity

I think,no matter who dates who,I always prefer Serena with Dan,they look so good together I swear everytime I see them together I squeal. Season 4 of GG is airing now on 8tv,I just watched the 2nd episode yesterday,I really really love GG more,any other GG fans here?? LEAVE A COMMENT PLEASE! 

Better yet,if you have the download link or anything please share,I wanna watch the 1st episode from season 4,I'm dying here! Tianesh (my girlfriend) told me she watched whole of season 4 at Germany already & Malaysian tv is showing it now??! Slow service I say. I love my hair now :) Even though i have to go through a grueling process to make it perfect,requires blow dry,a straightening iron,wide tooth comb,some hair styling products & my own hands of course,but it's worth it,took a couple of months to make it grow to the perfect length & shape,thank God it's perfect now! I don't know what hair style this is,but it's a rip off from someone I saw at facebook + a mix of some emo hair + a mix of Christina Grimmie's. Kinda looks like this.

Goodbye now,xoxo! ♥

Fashion Icon #2 : Selena Gomez

For some reason,among all Disney stars,I think Selena Gomez is the prettiest,but nothing about her actually attracts me other than her pretty face,then I start liking her songs & I start noticing her style,it's different than Demi & Miley since both of them are more into the rocker chick kinda vibe but Selena is more into something sweet & simple but sometimes I see her in funky clothes too. As a teenager,I can't & I don't even wear fancy clothes often so she's an awesome icon when it comes to effortless style & matching all the cutest outfits,so at those days when I feel lazy or when i wanna dress up for tuition class or a plain grocery shopping spree,I look up to Selena Gomez :)

Randomly posting a picture of her & Justin Bieber,lol.

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Notice something in all the pictures above? She loves wearing jeans & boots,especially jeans that are fitted. It's VERY hard for me to get the perfect jeans so I rely completely on my darling jeggings & leggings. She also wears plenty of T-shirts,loose tops & such,very comfortable stuff.

My favourite part from her 'Who says' video.

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Selena Gomez inspired look with a mix of my own styles :)
It's summer so I added a bronzer from Nars to get Selena's tanned bronzy look.
bag from Balenciaga
black heels from YSL
black blazer + denim shorts + cropped singlet
sunglasses + juicy couture charm bracelet 

Ignore the very messy blog post with all these numbers at the side cuz I have no idea what the hell I clicked.

Well enjoy & hope you feel inspired too! Like this is you like the look I just made & leave a comment to share your own thoughts. Xoxo! ♥