The 'A' week

I sat 2 previous subjects that I aim to get an A for. Now I have 3 subjects left to ace,hoping to get 80% & above,not an easy task but I'm gonna try,for me,getting 5A's for this trials is a big deal,cuz if I can get 5A's I can raise the bar higher & aim for 7A's. I always believe in possibilities. Why not? 

I'm tired of being underestimated,misjudged & misunderstood. Maybe & hopefully,with results,even though not excellent,I can prove that I do have the brains to do things. I seriously fucking hate it when people say I rely on being pretty to survive,I am not even that pretty,so why do I need to rely on my pimply face? Laugh out loud? Since I can't blog much & I got no inspirations lately maybe I'll do vlogs,they are more random & I guess some of my readers wouldn't mind seeing me talking plus I am a random person anyways :D 

I randomly recorded this for baby V,a friend :) just some words of encouragement. She likes it! So do other people,I guess they all agree with what I say. I do have a thing for doing videos lately & I am in love with this girl named Lexi (not literally la). 

I also might be changing missbanania to something else. I don't like it,it's starting to bug me. I'm trying to come up with something more catchy :) can you help me figure it out?? Then I'm gonna change my blog url & also my email. Take care guys! xoxo

Exams

I'm back from school!!! English & BM has been okay so far,no BIG problem or any issues even though I did skip certain parts for BM cuz I had no idea what to do at that section but who cares I did the rest & I think I can get full marks at certain areas so bravo to me. I had to come up & blog & write something,I'm having maths tomorrow so before I start doing my revisions I wanna do something else. And oh yeah I added a tab to go to my Tumblr up there,my friend actually asked why I have Tumblr when I already have a blog? Tumbr is normally where I can go emo & sentimental or just plain madness. So navigate yourself through all these tabs provided cuz I ain't so free to tell you twice :) I will be coming up to write whenever I can,usually I will be on twitter so follow me there if you haven't cuz I tweet everytime even during exams just to rant,lol. Okay,so...study hard alright? If you are like me & aren't confident in certain subjects (as for me I suck at maths),try your best la,don't give up just cuz you feel useless already (even though I feel useless too). A friend of mine once say that you don't have to get an A,getting a 10% when you got only 9% previously is also a tiny step of improvement so there's room for more,this is just the trials,who knows during the real thing you will get better results? Maybe a pass to those who always fail? And maybe an A to those who always get average marks? We can never predict the future so try la,that's why people always tell you to do your best :) 

Good luck!

I'm loosing alot of things....

Pretty isn't it? I wish it was my design but it isn't. Found this on google.

Fashion communication & journalism? Or Mass communication?

Dilemma in choosing both courses that i hearts!
Many friends say I like choosing "unrealistic" courses,I'm wondering what do they mean by that,are they saying that I'm not good enough? Or just to bold to study whatever the shit I'm interested in,what to do? Mamma gave me the guts to do whatever i like,T.I style :)

Most of my friends,they choose to study accounting,business & such,I also have no interest & talent in those courses,as the whole earth know's,I suck & hate maths.

Maybe I'm meant to be more of a artistic person? God knows.

I don't know why,feels like I'm loosing lots of things that I love.
I'm constantly feeling that I am not good enough,that I am not that special.
I'm still positive,its just that sometimes I get so unsatisfied of myself.
I'm like a piece of blank paper that needs to be scribbled by colorful crayons.
I need to stop thinking bout what other people will think.
Sometimes people can be so mean,they talk as if they don't care bout what other's will feel.
I think I'm gonna prove to "these" people that you can't judge a book by its cover. *sighs*
Its another emo post,you can choose to leave,or read if you also have a little bit of concern towards my feelings.
I have no idea what to study coz i keep having concerns bout how my results will be,how will it turn out,good or bad?? For now my only wish is to be able to study the course i want,I wanna have excitement in my dull life,its true what people say,you can't do anything without money.
I read today's paper & saw that Raffles has offers for "Bachelor of Fashion communication & journalism",I start to daydream bout rainbows & butterflies again,but then I can only study that course in SINGAPORE,so far.
I'm gonna try my best,anything to get into the world of media & fashion! :)

Btw i missed out on feb's issue of vivi so i found a website online where you can read vivi for free,just click here for the link,if your thankful then I'm welcomed!